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Sorry.It's.Been.So.Long - In A World Where Friends Means Enemies

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Previous Entry Sorry.It's.Been.So.Long Jul. 29th, 2006 @ 10:08 pm Next Entry
I don't really write much of a journal anymore.

It's hard to keep up when you don't ever feel the need to write anything down because nothing really seems important anymore.

The only thing good in the best month is I made an A in Calculus. Yay?

So I'm going on Vacation with Dustin and his family on Thursday-Sunday to Dallas. I'm kind of anxious about the whole thing. I definitely need to get back on Paxil starting tomorrow. Although, it won't even be in my system but at least I could lie to myself like I usually do with everything in my life to make myself think it is working fine.

Something strange happened to me during the week. I was in line at Burger King, I ordered my food, I went to the window to pay and the BK lady tells me how the lady in front of me paid already. I have absolutely no idea who she even was. I guess she was being kind. I guess it's kind of like a pay it forward sort of thing. It kind of brighten my day. I don't know. It just made me feel good in a different way than usual.

Dustin and I have been good. I don't really talk about us much because not many people give a fuck. Plus, it's obvious we're good if we're still happy together.

Counting Crows in just a month or so. I can't wait.

311 a week before Counting Crows. That should be fun.

My job has been having ups and downs, but that's life. Everything has ups and downs. I'm just tired of everything being down lately. It's kind of depressing.

Also, is it wrong to be offended by a "stupid" remark from a co-worker? Maybe I'm just being a little bitch about it, but it's something that kind of bothers me. I already have low self esteem. Oh well. My life sucks anyway so what would it change? My life would still be a big piece of shit, rather than a bigger piece of shit.

Fuck it all. That's just it. Fuck it.

"Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
keep that in mind the way that it felt
when the most I could do was to just blame myself

when the most I could do was to just blame myself
and I know you know, everything
I know you didn't mean it
I know you didn't mean it"~Taking Back Sunday
Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
Current Music: This.Photograph.Is.Proof.~Taking Back Sunday
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